Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Maria Elena's love story unfolds

I don't know much about Maria Elena. I know she is famous from somewhere, but I can't seem to find where that somewhere is located.

But, I love the way they made this video. 
Very creative, indeed.
And they look good for one another.

I believe most couples do experience these sorts of things; 
uncommon interests, 
gadgets vs clothes, 
sulking, 
panic attacks, 
late night phone calls,
accidentally dozed-off while talking.

Watching this video reminds me of what we have right now. 
(>,<)v

May these two love birds' marriage last till jannah.



Tuesday, December 18, 2012

FourTwoSeventh

Boy I think about it every night and day 
I'm addicted wanna jump inside your love 
I wouldn't wanna have it any other way 
I'm addicted and I just can't get enough

Yes, you got me addicted since the past 426 days. And please, don't stop.
I want moreeeeeeeeeee!! 

I love you to infinity and beyond, you Sweet Talker! :p

Happy 427th Magnificent Day.

 


Monday, December 17, 2012

Allergic Elegy

My lower right eyelid is swollen. 
And after pressing it (while pretending that I was a doctor), I think there is something wrong with my tears gland. I don't know how true my diagnosis is. I don't even know whether such thing as tears gland does exist or not. 

And, so is my right ear. 
There is a small bump near my jawline. It hurts whenever I press it. I have no diagnosis for this one as I always have a hard time trying to memorize parts in ears. 

There's more.
There are a few rashes on my right feet. And my left knee. 
The kind of rashes that I always experience. The ones that make me feel like ironing my skin. Yes, I'm not kidding because the itchiness will linger for quite some time and it is hard to keep my fingers from scratching them.

And I've been sneezing all day long.

So, yes, my allergy is back. 
Stronger and wiser.
And all over the body.

Thank you Allah, for blessing me with this.
This is Your subtle hint to remind me to return You.
Pardon my negligence.
Forgive my ignorance.
And thank you for Your love, dear Lord.
Alhamdulillah.
:)

Insomniac Me

It's been a while since I actually write something in here. Sometimes, I feel like I have been in haste since forever. Hence explains the pictures with quotes and copy-and-paste words taken from various sources. Despite the fact that I rarely have readers, I do actually enjoy writing things on different topics here. Yes, I know I am random. Always been one.

So, what's up? I just finished subtitling 'The Matchmaker', an Israeli movie. I was amazed to learn that Hebrew sounds a bit like Arabic. Words like ma (means what in both Hebrew and Arabic) and zahab (means gold in both Hebrew and Arabic) were numerously repeated in the movie. I can go on and on about the movie but since I won't be doing a review here, I shall stop myself. And glue my fingers together to stop them from typing about the movie. Nah, just kidding. :p

It's 02:49 and I want to head to bed but I can't. It could be due to the recently-adjusted biological clock of mine. I had been burning the midnight oil for almost a month now, so I reckon, my biological clock must have  been effected. I need to get myself a new clock, perhaps? :D

Now that I can't sleep, few funny thoughts are marathoning inside my head. Last week had been a secret-busted week for me. It was tough but I think I'm handling them just fine. I am a tough girl, after all. I won't deny that those secrets still haunt me, every now and then. But I'm trying my best to dig a deep hole and bury everything in it.  Hey, that doesn't sound like a bad idea. Maybe I need to actually do that. Dig and bury, hoping that everything will rot inside of the hole. Way to go, Tough Girl! :D

I know blogging wouldn't help me in battling my insomnia so I shall pen-off now, or shall I say, log off.

Guten Nacht/Guten Morgen.

p/s : I'm counting on you.


Friday, December 14, 2012

Meet Hannah, the Awesome girl.

I have a wonderful story that I want to share with my readers (if I happen to have any readers). 
I won't say much as I shall allow her mom's story to do the talking.



Hannah Duckworth is a 14 year old girl battling AML (Acute Myeloyde Leukemia). It is a cancer that starts in your bone marrow. AML is a commonly found in adults 40 and over, rarely is it found in children. Hannah was diagnosed less than a month before her 14th birthday. People with this type of cancer have abnormal cells in their bone marrow. The cells grow very quickly, and replace healthy blood cells. The bone marrow, which help the body fight infection eventually stop working. Most of the time doctors can not tell you what causes AML but, in Hannah's case they were able to determine that she has AML with inversion 16, which tells them that one of her chromosomes flipped and started swapping with others. When she arrived at St. Jude's she had less than 8% healthy bone marrow left. The prognosis is usually good. In most cases remission occurs after being cancer free for 5 years. Hannah will have her bone marrow done every 4 months to ensure it has not come back. On Tuesday December 18th, 2012 she will have her bone marrow that will hopefully begin the 5 year process. With treatment, younger patients with AML tend to do better than those who develop it at an older age. Experts say that this is due to the fact that younger people are able to tolerate strong chemotherapy medicines better. If the cancer does not come back (relapse) with in the 5 years you are said to be cured. Hannah was officially diagnosed June 14, 2012 right before her 14th birthday. The way we found out about Hannah's cancer was not a usual way. She did not present with typical signs, she only had sores in her mouth and after getting tested for mono we found she was neutropenic. She saw a pediatric oncologist for a couple of months. Who took samples of Hannah's blood two times a week and when she realized nothing was changing, she did a bone marrow. By the end of that day she called and said we need to be packed up and ready to go to St. Jude's as soon as they call. That's a phone call you never want to take. I didn't even have the heart to tell my daughter, I had to have the doctor tell her. It is like getting your heart ripped out and thrown on the ground. As if that's not enough she said, we would be gone for 6-8 months. Our world stopped moving, all of a sudden your in survival mode. You hear the words you never want to hear especially pertaining to your child. Our lives as we knew it would never be the same. We didn't even have time to say bye to anyone. By the end of the next day we were at St. Jude's. That is a trip that will never be forgotten. She started treatment on June 14, 2012. At this time Hannah had sores in her mouth leading down to her stomach. The doctors and nurses were trying to make her comfortable with narcotics,of which we soon found out she was very sensitive to. By the end of the night Hannah would be fighting for her life. After the first time she stopped breathing they gave her a medicine to reverse the effect of the narcotics. That didn't work and she stopped breathing again. As they were bagging her right in front of us I was able to reach down and hold her hand and tell her everything was going to be alright (even though I didn't know at that time) I gave her a kiss and told her to close her eye and it will all be over just like a bad dream. It was the hardest thing to walk out of that room. We were met in the hallway by the nurses and aids who surrounded us with prayer and support. At one point her blood pressure was 40/20 and her oxygen was 59%. There is an unexplainable emptiness you feel. After they got her stable, they were able to tell us that she responded to the chemo so well that it popped open all her leukemia cells and that made her go septic, her whole body started shutting down. This in fact was the worst day of our lives.They were controlling her blood pressure with medicine and her breathing by a machine. With their fast acting they saved our daughters life, for that we are forever thankful. The next morning to our surprise she was communicating with pen and paper. She made sure to tell us, not to cry and that she was going to be ok. In three days and many test later Hannah accidentally pulled the breathing tube out while she was sleeping. Within hours she was on room air and out of ICU. She was in the hospital for a total of two weeks. Her second treatment presented with more problems, they do procedures called Interthegal Therapy (IT Therapy) which is where they put chemo in your spinal fluids so it can reach your brain because the other chemo does not reach it. It caused Hannah's brain to swell, she lost the ability to follow direction or even talk within moments. By the time we got to the hospital she was hardly able to walk. But as fast as it came on it went away, doctors say that never happens, she has no residual effects. Yet another blessing. She has receive numerous blood products, has dealt with nausea and vomiting, her weight has gone from 99 pounds all the way down to 76 pounds, she lost her hair, has missed out on freshman orientation and homecoming dances, time with friends and her dog died about a month in to this journey. In the process of her recovering from her final chemo which was on October 21, 2012 she ended up with a line infection. Two weeks later she was still in the hospital with a fever so they did a scan, which was clear. The doctor really felt like her fever curve was telling him she had a fungal infection but, if you have no white cells it won't show so, he repeated the scan a week later. That in fact showed a 5cm spot in her lung. This was the week of Thanksgiving of which we were supposed to be home by this time. We had a meeting that night and all of us including Hannah decided it needed to come out. The next day she had surgery, by the time they got to the fungi it had spread even more. They ended up taking 2/3 of her lung on the right side. Even when they got it out it was growing right before their eyes under the microscope.There are many things cancer can take away but, we will take away so much more. Strength we never knew we had, faith, blessings from people we don't even know, new friends and we have the life of our beautiful daughter. Through out all of this Hannah has maintained her dignity and strength with a mature and faithful attitude. Never asking why or being angry, always being positive and a pleasure to be around. She is our hero and always will be. Being an artist Hannah is inspired by most everything. She is able to look at anything a draw it with great detail. Ever since she was a baby, Hannah has loved art and animals. Once I found her in my bathroom putting on her kitty face with my make-up. She has many other interest like realistic artwork, rock concerts, studded belts, and cool hair styles. Some of the animals she like are unicorns, horses, cats, dogs, fox, and especially wolves. Photography has always been a favorite of hers. Hannah does a lot of research when she is interested in something. One time we went to Best Buy, while looking at cameras she took a picture worthy of framing. She has an eye for beauty, what ever that may be. Some of her favorite artist include Kat Von Dee, Henri Russeo, and Van Gogh. One day she would like to meet Kat Von Dee. Like any teen she likes to shop and hang out at the mall. Her favorite store is Hot Topic. Skinny jeans and combat boots fit her unique style perfectly. Music has really helped Hannah, some of her favorite bands are Misfits, Deadmaui, The Cure, Death Cab for Cutie, she also enjoys Dub Step. Before she lost her hair she was known for her radical hair colors and always had a style all her own that she would cut herself. She uses her imagine freely and skillfully. Hannah loves to go antique shopping and collects skeleton keys. She feels they are all unique just like people. Her laid back personality and unique individual style makes her a conversation starter where ever she goes.Everyone loves her incredible sense of humor. She is such a blessing and so thoughtful that she often puts others before herself. I really hope this helps you to understand her and the journey she went on. If it can help one person then we have done our job. We feel like we have had blessing after blessing and couldn't do it with out our faith. Thank you for taking the time to read her story.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Hatred

I tend to experience a lot of mental breakdowns lately.

I can't think straight and even little little things bother me.

For the sake of the ones whom I love so dearly, I hope that this feeling will go away.

Life hates me.

I know I am not supposed to sound like an ungrateful bitch here, but I really have to say it.

Life hates me.

But I hope it won't hate any one of you.

God, help me.
God, bless me.
God, grant me.
God, be with me.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

This Is Just Another Complaint

I have another two 30-mins episodes which are due tomorrow.
And plenty plenty plenty of movies.
I really really really need to work fast.
And speed up my thinking cap.

And I can't keep my mind off of my superbestgirlfriend's engagement party that I will have to miss due to few reasons. 

Haiyyarghh!!

Too many to think.
Too little space in my brain.

While I groan and howl and complain about how little sleep I get every night, there are still people who are jobless and have bills to pay and mouths to feed. Astaghfirullahal'adzim. I am such a shameless ungrateful ugly creature.

Quote #2


Friday, December 7, 2012

I Won't Give Up


Sayang,
God knows what we have gone through.
And I strongly believe that He put us through those trials because He wants us to grow stronger and wiser. 
As much as I won't give up on us, I hope you will do the same too.
I love you, Baby. I love us. 


Thursday, December 6, 2012

Merry Marry

Why Marriage is Awesome (copied and pasted)

1. It gives you security …that same secure feeling you felt when growing up in your parents’ house, over time you feel that feeling with your spouse.

2. You are always learning. Through good times and bad you are constantly learning about the other person and about yourself.

3. It makes you grow. Having the best Ikhlaq with your spouse is so much harder than having it with others. Hence you learn to work on your character and it makes you grow into a better person inshaAllah.

4. You have someone to go everywhere with. Remember that trip you wanted to take to see that one place, well now you can go there with someone and enjoy it.

5. It gives you confidence. A supporting spouse really boosts your confidence level and can help you accomplish many things which you thought you couldn’t do before.

6. It brings you back to reality! Hollywood/bollywood movies got nothing on real life. Marriage pushes you to live in this world and that if you really want a beautiful life with no sadness, you would have to work for jannah!

7. It can be a source for you to see the fruit of your heart…i.e your children.

All checked.
I love you. ;)

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Ladies, Know Your Shoes!

I can't help but share this picture which will guide you into knowing the things that your feet wear. Yes, this post is not only meant for ladies. Guys HAVE to remember this by heart too so you won't mistakenly bring your Russell Crowe's Gladiator DVD when your lady kindly asks your favour to bring her gladiators. ;)


Salaam.

Read somewhere that we shouldnt say 'salam' as it carries the meaning of 'damn you'. Salam is derived from the arabic verb, 'salima-yaslamu-salamatan'. One of the mashdar (nouns) for 'salima' is salaam which means happy/peace. As can be seen in verse 58 of surah Yaasiiin, 'salaamun qaulan min rabbirraahiim', that salaam means peace. So please, stop sharing things that u are not sure of its authenticity. Take the dignity to do some research. I know most of you are eager to educate people on deen but please, dont simply share things that u have limited knowledge about. Dig some info and equip yourself with it. Please!

Saturday, December 1, 2012