Dashes.

I wish I can stop being soooo negative.
I don't know why but it seems like I'm seeing the dash symbols all over the places.
I am depressed and easily touched. I burnt out at the littlest things and often times, I cry myself to sleep. God knows I have gone through a lot of things in life but I have never been this fragile. My tears have never been on sale like this.

I am scared. Scared of too many things. Yes, I am depressed because I am scared. I cry because I am scared. I am scared because I am scared.

I am scared of the possibilities. I am scared that I won't be strong enough to deal with them. I am scared that I won't be able to muster up the courage and walk away if I need to. I am scared that I won't be good enough. I am scared of losing. I am scared of lies. I am scared of having a broken heart.

Of course I am a happy bride-to-be. Of course I'm looking forward for this whole thing to happen and in fact, I wish I can speed the time. Of course I am excited. I really am. I really really really am.

But I'm scared.

'Stupid you,' you would accuse. It's okay. You won't understand. She won't understand. He won't understand. They won't understand. No one will understand. And I don't expect any one to understand.

I can keep these to myself.

:'(

I know I have been distancing myself from blogging for quite a while now. Works are piling up, hence explains why I hardly have time to blog.

Nonetheless, I squeeze in a few seconds today to have my thoughts blogged.

I am worried about something.

I don't know what should I do.

I am dead worried.

Nak nanges.

;'(